Recently, a friend and I met up and we talked about things we would want to do in the future.
Of course, for me, I said I wanted to travel. We chatted for a while and then she told me of something that peaked my interest. A mutual friend of ours was going on a working holiday in another country, meaning they live there for a period of time and get a job while they are there. There is a program for Canadians ages 18-30 can go through called SWAP.ca, and they help set up everything with you, such as flights and accommodation. Instantly, this peaked my interest, especially the program in the UK.
Thinking I might actually want to do this, I did some research on it, and it is in fact pretty affordable after some time saving up. After the lease is up for the apartment I am currently in, this could be a possibility. I get thinking about it and get excited.
But then, I start to doubt myself.
Could I even go through with it? Could I see myself living in another country and working? What if I fail? All these doubts in my mind instantly make me feel like this is an impossible feat, which it definitely is not. Most things in life aren’t. This is a chance to do something I really want to do, so why let simple fears get in the way? Worrying about the outcome of something is very normal, but don’t let it stop you from doing something you dream of doing.
For a while, I didn’t even see the point of continuing this blog. I thought nothing would come of it, so why even try? That is definitely not the way to think. Always persevere, especially if its something you love. There is always that voice nagging from the back of your brain telling you bad things about yourself. We all have it. But you just have to say, not today, Satan. You won’t stop me this time.
I’m sure there are many things in my life I let fear control. Not wearing something that I really liked because I was scared of what people thought. Not going somewhere cause I was afraid I would embarrass myself for some reason. I have, for one, learned to not give a flying crap about what people think (for the most part), and not let that feeling of possible doom define my life.
If I end up going to the UK for a bit, I don’t get the feeling of impending doom. I feel like I will be doing something with myself that will make me feel like I’m not wasting my life, something that will fulfill me. I can’t let fear get in my way. There are some days I do let it control me. But those days are far less than they used to be, and I happier because of it. I am in fact a worrier, I get that from my mom, and it is natural to worry. But not to the point you miss out on things you love and enjoy because of it. Anxiety is a very real problem for a lot of people, myself included. I know it can be crippling for some people, in which medication, therapy, and other things can help. It is important to take care of yourself, and stay on top of your mental health.
Life is too short. Do the thing you want to do.
Thanks for reading.